I think the best thing about this blog is that it chronicles things for me, and gives me a written record of the progress I’ve made. Dating is a tough thing to learn; small sample sizes, ambiguous feedback, and the painstaking process of figuring out what works for you-let-alone-anyone-else. It’s easy to get discouraged, and I certainly have. But if I look at my writing from two years ago… I’m doing so much better. I don’t know that one could say well, really, and I’ll probably not really be comfortable until I find someone else I click with enough to have things continue beyond a couple of weeks, but I’m a lot better at all of this. I can approach people (if primarily online), I can fill out conversation on a date, I can write someone off who doesn’t get back to me, and I can just generally enjoy myself. Without that baseline of record, I don’t think I’d realize how profound the difference is.
I have a lot to work on. I need to learn how to express interest in someone outside of just explicitly saying so in an email. I need to figure out how not to be paralyzed when someone seems attracted to me in person, or at least how not to just ignore it. I should probably eventually realize that some slight difficulty in dating someone doesn’t mean that I should give up on someone, and eventually become comfortable making it easy on someone else without needing them to make it easy on me. I mean, I’m in my 30s, geez.
Still. It’s really nice to have some empirical reason to think that I’m getting better.